Okay, so I've left you hanging for a while. Oops! So sorry!! I'm going to give you a very brief run down of what happened after my last post... I was devastated to be back to square one and feeling a bit hopeless, which prompted me to seek out a new agency. I truly didn't think it was the agency's fault that things weren't working out, but I thought maybe my luck would change if I sought help elsewhere.
One major problem I was facing was that I was an Arizona resident and not many IPs or agencies are willing to work with an AZ surrogate. The laws are sticky and it's really just not in their best interest.
After much research, I was able to find another agency willing to work with me and we got the ball rolling immediately. My hopes were high and I was excited again. I was moving through the process pretty quickly and we were planning my trip to LA for my medical and psych screenings when everything came to a halt again. :( Every time we agreed on a date and travel arrangements, something would come up on their end. An emergency, a doctor out of town, etc. We tried multiple times to coordinate our schedules and finally I got the feeling that the universe was telling me to wait. So I responded to one final email that I would be putting this process on hold and now here we are again 4 years later.
A lot has changed for our family in the course of four years and I do not regret waiting and putting everything on hold one bit. I'm one of those 'everything happens for a reason' people and even though surrogacy is something I have never stopped thinking about, I don't think the timing was ever right until now. It's been pretty heavy on my heart the last 18 months or so and every time I try to push the thoughts to the back burner, I get another God wink. Whether it be a stranger on a facebook group talking about her surrogate experience, an ad popping up in my newsfeed about a new agency in town, an email from T (that was spam,,, but seriously, haven't heard from him in 4 years), a commercial on the radio about babies after I've said a nice long prayer about this whole idea, a new neighbor announcing her surrogate journey, etc. I feel like everywhere I turn, God is saying NOW. DO IT NOW.
So here I am... I live in Texas now, a very surrogate friendly state and I've submitted a new application that was APPROVED last week (!!!) and I have my first of many screening appointments on the 31st. Let's make a baby!!
